Smile even if you were ever lied to, cheated on, back stabbed, or heart broken. I know it can be really hard, but just act as if nothing has ever happened. To the people who did you wrong, show them that they no longer phase you. Show them what they’ve lost. Show them that you no longer need them. Stay strong, keep your head up, and smile through it all. You know what they say, happiness is the best revenge.
I wonder why I can’t get over it? Move on. Forgive and forget. But then again. Why in the world should I forgive him? Why should I forget the pain. I’ve been lied to and cheated on. He did me wrong. Why should I forgive. He said everything was my fault. Why should I forget? Why should I forget the blame he put on me. The pain and weight he put on me. The vicious sadness he put me through? The never ending cycle.
He’s got a new girl now. Calls her by the same name I called him. In a way I hope he’s happy now. But I really hope he falls down a hole strait to hell. I hope he drowns in everything that he did. I hope it suffocates him. I hope he gets hurt. Real bad. So he can realize what he did to me. Maybe I need closure. I just need to heal. I don’t understand why I can’t get over this. When I look at him feelings of pain, anger, and something much kinder are mixed together. Something pulls at my chest. My heart drops to my stomach but I don’t even know why. I feel like I’m still carrying his baggage.
I want to let go and move on.
I can’t say I miss you. Because I don’t.
But why can’t I forget?
Why can’t I forget the day that you kissed her while you were still with ME. The day you walked with HER. the day you started dating her while I was still the one you said you loved. I was still here when that happened. I was still yours. But I wasn’t enough was I? I never was. I wasn’t strong enough to hold your baggage. To hold all the things you did to me. I just wasn’t enough.